The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.
We wake up pretty early in our home - before four - because my husband has to go on post and lead his soldiers in PT - physical training. Early. I've found that if I don't get up with him, then my entire schedule becomes different than his - which means we don't really live together. Well, yes, we live in the same home - but we don't live in the same time. We don't eat together. We don't talk together. We don't see and hear the same news, or shows, or attend the same events. We have no common discussion because we - don't - live - together. We learned this the hard way.
So we have just enough time to share coffee, check the weather, and discuss the 'state of the household' before he leaves. Not much - but important. We've had some practice. By the time he goes out the door, we both know what's for dinner and what time to have it ready. We know whether he's coming home at lunch or breakfast. We know if either of us needs to do an errands, or spend any money. By the time he goes out the door, we've usually had a chance to comment on the day's headline stories - quick-judgement comments that tell more about our relationship than about the news itself. And we don't always agree.
We save up for discussions. For when we have the luxury of spending real time together - time to look beyond our household, time to throw our own blanket of beliefs across events beyond our personal lives. It's kind of fun - solving the world's problems with my husband. Especially when we bring our different backgrounds and experiences to the table. Especially when we are able to see situations from different viewpoints. And personally, I am fascinated by the way my husband thinks. He has a way of rendering the fat out of information - clarifying - He has a way of recognizing what is important.
It's a big picture thing. He sees beyond the present moment; good and bad consequences - fallout from this or that action. It's a talent. A gift. He calms me with his vision - is it a matter of life and death? - he'll ask, when I tell him about my fears and anxieties.
Then don't worry so much. Do what you can do - do it the best you can - and then let it go.
Oh. Oh yeah. I know that. I forget, sometimes, in the moment, in the confusion, in the stress.
Sometimes, the best you can do is hope in God. He is good. Sometimes, the best you can do is continue the things you have been taught - pray, study, conduct yourself well. Sometimes, the best you can do is wait. It worked for the Israelites in Babylon - it worked for the disciples in Galilee - it works for me.
Do what you can do - do it the best you can - and then let it go.
Heavenly Father, sometimes I worry about things I have no control over. Sometimes I worry about situations in my life and the lives of my family. Sometimes, I just plain worry about the state of the world. Thank you for reminding me: I can pray. I can study. And with Your help, I can conduct myself well. When I put my hope in You, then I can wait. Then I can be still and let it go.